Early Sunday morning is my absolute favorite computer time. I grab my coffee, head to my computer desk and just soak in the silence. This morning as I was scrolling through my Facebook feed, I saw something that stopped me in my tracks. A comment on a mutual friends status from someone I used to hold very near my heart. We were so close y’all, I even cut the cord when she had her daughter. And then one day she was gone, without a word. I spent the next few minutes in reflection and thinking about friendship.
How beautiful is that? I mean, that’s hallmark movie stuff right there. We have sworn friendship to each other in the name of the Lord. Doesn’t that just make you smile? Yeah, me too. How many of us crave a friendship like that? Those true, genuine friendships are one of life’s real blessings.
The most frustrating, and absolutely sad part was is in my heart I honestly felt as if I was a good friend. I put so much effort into that friendship. I was devoted. I was faithful. I did all the right things in hopes of finding a heart-friend.
The only place I knew to run to without being judged for my feelings, and my heartbreak, was to God. I ran to Him quickly, and daily. And in that gap between my heartbreak and His healing, I chose to trust His timing.
And I will tell you this, years later, I realize wholehearted it was what was best for me. While I hate that the friendship ended, I don’t regret what came of it. What it revealed in me when that friendship was stripped away was not healthy and Jesus needed a wide path in to heal some things in me. To make beauty from those ashes.
And while I can’t fix it for you, and I can’t take away your heartache, I can tell you this.
Don’t be afraid to call it a breakup.
Don’t be afraid to talk about it.
Run directly to Him. He wants to hold your broken heart in His hands and with His loving grace, piece it back together.
And somehow He will make beauty from your ashes.
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