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weight loss *february*

here is my february weight loss post with pics as promised (sorry it’s a day late)…the pictures are totally horrid as they were taken this morning at around 6:15 and the lighting was terrible…

i managed to lose 15 lbs this month.  i’m not going to pretend it’s this great loss as some of it was weight i had gained back during the holidays. 

i struggled a lot with exercise this month, i really miss getting outside and just walking…i’ve added some weights into my routine along with my cardio and i think i can see a difference in my arms, they seem to be toning up some…

i’m also trying to eat more lean protein and a lot less carbs…one day i tracked my carbs and was SHOCKED at how many i eat!  they were even “healthy” carbs (or so i thought) like oatmeal, fiber cereal, slim fast bars…i had tons of carbs at the end of the day.

i’m also trying to up my fiber.  i hear bob talk all the time on the biggest loser about how important fiber is to weight loss.  we’ll see how that goes.  i’ve realized when one thing isn’t really working how i want it to that it’s ok to switch it up.  for a year i was too afraid to change anything, afraid the change would make me get “off track” and fail…but i’m now comfortable enough to add some change into my journey…

out for now
~kisses

~embracing my struggle~

you must do the thing you think you cannot do  ~ eleanor roosevelt
i fight a battle daily
a fight i’ve fought for years, most of my life infact.  i’m learning, slowly, how to take control over something that has controlled me for years.  i’ve been at it for a year and i still have soooooo much to learn!
it’s no secret, this fight is hard
and believe me, i struggle with it daily.  especially right now as i’ve hit my plateu and haven’t lost for a few weeks.  i look in the mirror and think “is THIS it, is this REALLY where i’m going to be forever?”.  i have to admit, i get discouraged.  i get discouraged and immediately my brain wants to throw me back into the cycle.  the vicious cycle most of us know…your fat which makes you depressed so you eat to comfort yourself which, in turn, makes you fatter. 
the choice is mine
i’ve learned this over the past year.  i can embrace my struggle or i can run from it.  i spent so many years turning around and running from it as fast as i could.  i would think “i didn’t lose this week so why keep trying” and i would run…straight to the cupboard and grab a bag of chips.  obviously, that way of thinking doens’t work.  now when i see i haven’t lost any i take a deep breath and think about what i could change about my diet or exercise in the following week to hopefully see a loss on the scale. 
i’ve heard it said
that although people can advise us on what to do, this is a fight we must fight alone.  i can tell you, if i had to fight this alone i would lose.  i know that every single day the Lord is on my side.  i know that everyday in every circumstance He is already there.
the picture on the left was taken october, 2008…the picture on the right is december, 2009…

– Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

out for now
~kisses

p.s….notice the nose and the difference in it since the “break”…ugh…

my journey continues…

so today i get back on the healthy road and continue my journey.  i am going to document it here this year as well.  the beginning of each month i’ll make a post with pictures and how much i lost the month before.  i guess i’m doing this also to hold myself accountable as well.
these are my beginning pictures for 2010.  i would LOVE to lose 50 more pounds by summer and that is my goal.  i’m not so much a fan of the second picture BUT it’s real.  hopefully i can set an example and help someone out along the way.

out for now
~kisses